6. Deep Inside

Tell me.

What is the pain inside you child?

Is it the hurt from which your broken heart creates from the loss of a treasure more precious then life itself? That treasure, that makes another rich, with your joy.

Is it the hurt from seeing a cherished one, robbed from the sweet embrace of life, stolen from this world.. And from your heart?

Or is it the pain from the betrayal, that a once trusted traitor to life has cursed you with? Forever embedding you a scar, that you did not deserve. I understand, why you scream WHY?

The fallacy of humanity, is to believe we truly deserve something. For all those who suffered, for all those that have known pain.. Did they deserve it? The answer is meaningless, for you cannot take away what has been already felt.

We all love nothing more, then to hear the sweet words.. "You deserve _____". It is music to my ears, I know that I have done right. But how many times have I heard that music? As many times as I have been left disappointed. For all those sweet words, that music... They mean nothing, less then nothing.

I am nothing.

And so are you.

But that does not break me nor you, for you are still here with me. I'm above this pain. It is not new to me, not new to anyone, for it has been apart of all our lives. We are one with the pain, we are married to it... Till death do us part.

But the God from over water and the stars, has so much more in store for us. Life is not all about pain, life doesn't have to be hell.. It is what you mold it into. With hands wielded by one with a heart made of gold, life can be joy, life can be paradise.

Life is our greatest enigma, that which we love and hate so much. The pain that permeates every moment of our existence, is the sacrifice that all people must give. So that we may be worthy of the sweet relief of death, for death hates suffering, and she would see us all free from it one day.

While pain is everywhere, the joys and happiness of life is too. But it slumbers, waiting for anyone, it cares not for who deserves it, but for the one has the will to awaken it and finally know salvation. Death loves happiness, that is why when our time is near, we can sleep in peace, knowing that we are complete.

There are so many questions that we have, about life and what we have endured. But those answers you can only find in yourself, life answers to nobody, but to the universe that is God. I'm one with the pain, I'm one with the joy, I'm one with life itself.. I understand, why you scream WHY? Because..

I am everything.

And so are you.

We all must one day shed our flawed feelings, we must abandon our hate, our sadness, our anger, our insecurities, and all the rest that compose the far darker one within. For it poison to us, it holds us back from our true potential. It is the creator of your worst pain, the pain you create in your mind.

Once you are no longer held back by this monster, then you can finally emerge from this pain. The universe that is you and your burning desire to live life and know peace. You need only crave it and reach for it with all your heart. For it is in reach, it always has been, and always will.

For there is one thing, one thing in all the universe that human beings truly deserve.. To be loved by one self, the one who has the power to say if you deserve that or not, is you alone.

I must ask you, do you deserve it? Do you really deserve it?

You already know the answer, and so do I.

Once we all awaken, we can be one with ourselves and each other. We can hold on to each others hand, so that we may be complete . We can be in a perfect Yin and Yang, with our pain, our happiness, and with each other.

Tell me.

What is the pain inside you child?

I know what that pain is now.. It is the pain that will no longer hold you back from loving the one person in all the universe who deserves it the most.

You.

For you child, deep inside, I know..

You are saved.