29. LAUGH 3

Hah..

You are really something else. 

Not many can venture into the abyss of themselves and face the darkness in their heart..

A weaker man would have gone insane. 

But not you.. You would never grant us that release. 

You showed me no mercy when you created me, and doomed us both to this perpetual pain. 

So don't get the wrong idea.. I still despise you. 

More then any being has ever despised anyone.. 

But it just seems the harder we try to escape each other..

The more entangled we become. 

The more we fight, the more we become each other.

But I cant help but feel.. There is something missing.

If you are the host, the display of all that is within you.. 

And I’m the darkness in your heart, as well as all the anguish you have endured..

You’re hate, rage, sadness, heartbreak and so much more.

I ask you.. 

Do even you know of any part of you that is Happy?

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I know one. 

What?

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I am here my brothers.

I have always been here.

Who am I?

I’m the light in your heart.

I’m the sunrise every morning that liberates you from the creeping darkness and that which lies within.

The burning passion and indomitable will to live. 

I was born from the first time we as a baby, looked up into the stars.. 

From that moment I emerged from your soul, as you’re hope and dreams personified.

I’m everything that was gifted to you.

I’m everything you have and will ever have.

I’m the immeasurable joy from both those two feeling combined and so much more.

I’m that immense joy molded into a weapon.

And that weapon is LOVE.

The AWAKENING is here. 

I will always be by your side, no matter what.

Brothers..

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You see, we are so much more then just yin and yang.

We are a perfect Trinity.

We are meant to complete each other, we cannot exist without each other. 

One of you is my shadow, the other is my light.

They go hand in hand, just like we do.

Yes I do have allot of hate, rage, sadness, and resentfulness..

But I am also full of love, happiness, compassion and joy. 

That's what makes us HUMAN. 

Now I’m ready to come to terms with what I’am.

And the consequences that might bring, God knows there will be many. 

It will always be a struggle, and I do not know how our story will end.

Maybe one day I will give up, and put a gun to my head to finally end my agony..

Maybe one day I will sacrifice my life to save another’s life, and die without fear..

Or maybe one day I will be on my death bed surrounded by my loved ones, so I can finally let go, and die truly complete.. 

I do not know.. But what I do know is that you both shall accompany me, wherever I go. 

I already know the light of my awakened self will always be with me, as is his nature. 

But you, you’re nature is to divide.. To hide in the dark. 

You cannot hide forever, I would know.. 

We already tried. We tried our entire life.

It didn’t work..

I ask you brother.. Will you unite with us?

Will you help us become whole?

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Heh.. First off, we are not REALLY brothers. 

Second, whats the point?

Everyone lets us down, EVERYONE. 

Even you... Which is why I hate all of you. 

God has cursed me to see what life should be like, only to be denied it..

We will all end up alone, one way or another..

Hilarious right?

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Maybe we are not really brothers.. But I love you like a brother. 

Everyone has let you down, especially me.. 

But not because you didn’t deserve their love..

But because they didn’t deserve YOUR love. 

While I cannot speak for others, I can speak for myself in that.. 

You will never have to be alone again.

Or should I say.. LAUGH alone again.

I like the sound of that!

But you know.. The road to Eternity, is one paved in pain, suffering, heart break, and MADNESS. 

I know. 

I also know you wont have to face it alone either.. Brother. 

So what do you say to our offer?

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Hah