53. How I’ve Missed You

 

I try and think back to a time.

Before I knew you.

Before I held you.

Before I loved you.

But I cant.

I can’t remember how life was..

Without you. 

And I never want too. 

…

I wonder where you are right now?

Living your life traveling the world?

Maybe you are working as a higher up in a massive company. 

Or maybe..

Maybe you have settled down and started a family.. In the warm embrace of another. 

But how could you be in any of those places?

When you found your home in my heart. 

And you never left. 

I can still remember clearly..

Our first kiss, so supple and sweet.. I never wanted it to end. 

When I first held you, it was so warm and comforting.

But my most favorite moment of all..

When we first made love, your moans were pure ecstasy, and you left me hopelessly addicted. I wanted MORE.

The time we spent together.

The time we were together.

I just knew.

I was finally complete.

I was home. 

…

That is why when you left.

You took a part of me.

You tore my heart out.

And left a gaping hole that may never heal. 

That part is still a blur..

A bad dream.

A nightmare.

I can never wake up from.

Maybe thats all you were..

Just a dream, a hallucination. 

Maybe you were never real to begin with.

That will be the lie I tell myself. 

So I don’t have to feel this pain anymore.

So.. 

I don’t have to miss you so much anymore.

…

As I sit there alone in the dark, and stare out into the night sky by my window..

I pray a silent prayer.. I ask the God of the the Heavens and the Earth.

To bring you back to me.

So I can kiss you.

Hold you.

And make you moan again.

But most importantly… 

So I can tell you how I’ve missed you.

Amen.

Just then, I hear a knock at the door.

No way..

THERES NO WAY. 

I race down to the front door more faster then I have ever ran before. 

I grab the door knob, and start twisting, and open the door.

Yes…. At long last. 

You were standing before me!

AT LONG LAST!

You had come home.

It has felt like an eternity since I have seen your face, and a single second at the same time..

We waste no time.

Our lips meet again, for the first time in a lifetime it seems.. Still as sweet and supple as ever.

I hold you close and tight, I’m never going to let you go again.

Then we enter the bedroom, we get ready to unite and become one.. To become whole.

For that piece of me, you took with you.. My heart, its finally going to return to its rightful place. 

We get into bed with our clothes off, and hold each other close..

And right before we start making love.

I look you deep into your eyes..

And say to you.

…

Let me show you.

How I’ve missed you.