Last year’s review, I concluded with this:
“2022 took so much from me and everyone else.
But I prophesied in the last 2021 year end review..
That no matter what these horrible years take from me…
Even if 2023 is just another one of these nightmare years again.
They can NEVER take my FIGHTING SPIRIT.
And I was RIGHT.
One year later, I’m still here FIGHTING.
One year later… I’m still ME.
Now I ask, one year later..
What are you?”
…
What am I?
Still alive.
But just barely. At least thats how I feel currently.
Others that have what I had, weren’t so “lucky”.
Lets start off with the world stuff first.
I must have the gift of prophecy or something, because I always predict that these years are worse than the last… They always are without fail.
I wish I could say something new for the state of the world, but it’s really the exact same state.. Just a WORST version of last years, in fact there are now two wars going on instead of the only one from before. The War in Ukraine and the War in Gaza, thats really the only noticeable difference. It just seems that the world I knew as a child and teen, is long gone. Now this is a world of anger, hate, disease, war, massive inflation, division, and sadness. It honestly makes me sick to see how much things have degraded, society is dying.
And it’s all our fault.
What else is new right?
Moving on.
…
As for me personally, it was mostly the same as the previous few years. Almost an entire awful year of things going wrong, with a handful of “good” days thrown in there. I would love to say I’m just being overly negative about everything, but unfortunately I’m just telling the truth. It was an almost entirely a terrible year.
With to my great delight! The very LAST DAY being arguably the worst day of all! Why you ask? Well… After FOUR long years of evading this disgusting despicable COVID-19 virus. It finally got me, this demon.. Despite my carefulness, was brought to me from someone else unknowingly… And it finally got its talons into me. The devil himself found me and yes as I write this, I’m infected and just found out a little while ago. I took multiple covid tests, and two of them showed positive.. Again, ON THE VERY LAST DAY OF 2023. God, the devil, the universe, fate, whatever… Must have a sense of humor. Very funny.
What rotten luck. I just cannot catch a break, I feel so awful and sick. When I found out, I felt a great sadness… And an unparalleled RAGE, beyond all comprehension. But I could not express myself, but I had grown so sick and fatigue. This year wasn’t going to end, without one last middle finger to me, well it worked I guess.. I hate this, to know this monster is inside my body for the first time, ravaging my insides, battling my immune system for the right to torture and kill me, multiplying and replicating, so they can feast on my lungs and my soul. This is the true devil inside. I know allot of people have had it many times already, and its “no big deal” anymore to some. But all I know is that this monster killed my uncle, and now I have it for the first time.. So its not too unreasonable for me to be so uncomfortable about having it. It’s a big deal to ME. It was only two or three years ago, that people were dropping like flies and the WORLD WAS BROUGHT TO ITS KNEES. People have bad memory it seems. It’s still very early on, so I’m hoping that it’s not too severe for me. Fortunately I’m mostly vaccinated, only missing the latest one, so I don’t imagine myself going on any ventilator anytime soon. So we will see… The New Years Party is just starting after all. This is the worst one hands down.. Let that be known. *(UPDATE five days later: it got super SEVERE. I went to the ER and got prescribed Anti-COVID medicine. Finally starting to recover as of writing this update, but not better yet).
I hate to always be so dreary here, but it’s all the truth. But I will at least include the few good things that happened. I had went to a couple fun parties this year, I absolutely love partying and social events, I always have a great time at them! I unfortunately didn’t have my birthday kick back this year, too many things went wrong.. So I did the next best thing and had a delightful birthday dinner with some close loved ones, who brought me gifts! I had a great time! Raving this year.. Was very bare bones, I only went to one single rave and that was Dreamstate 2023 at Queen Mary! It was only one day, but I had an absolute blast! I was supposed to go to another rave at the harbor, but a “hurricane” caused it to be canceled at the last second, which was a waste because it ended up slightly sprinkling, so that was a HUGE disappointment. I play a card game called yugioh, and I’m a new competitive player.. Long story short, I went from losing all the time to winning most of my matches and topping several tournaments. I got third and second place in my local OTS, and got I believe was 160th place out of around 800 players at a Regionals at the LA convention center. I have improved worlds above what I used to be, so I’m proud of that! Long story short, I also I had some minor chest surgery to remove a mass in my chest, it really sucked but it resolved fine, I guess technically it’s a positive thing. Lastly, probably the best thing that happened to me.. I finally got a new car, well at least newer than what I had. My old car was a 1996 Toyota Camry LE Dark Green, it is almost as old as I and it’s on its last legs.. It was sold to me by my elderly neighbors I use to work for, long story, had it for years.. But now it time to let go. I was hooked up with a 2008 Toyota Prius, a far more advanced and reliable car. That was probably the highlight of my year no doubt.
In conclusion, 2023 was yet another year of the same garbage, if not more garbage. With a few minor differences, and a few positives for me, just like every year. I will say one last positive thing I got this year.. I have grown allot mentally over the past couple of years.. I’m allot more assertive, I take less crap from people, and I’m standing up for myself allot more.. I was always a people pleaser for so long, and it got me absolutely nowhere.. People HATE people pleasers, I learned that the hard way. I dare say I have more respect from people, when I STOPPED going out of my way to please them. It’s insane, people are weird haha. But I’m very glad I’m evolving and growing mentally, the true greatest thing I realized this year..
Is the REawakening continues.
After all this hellish year, I and others have endured..
Still I endure.
I told you I was a FIGHTER, and here I am still going on.
Battered, beaten, sick and coughing up bloody mucus(yes really). But still FIGHTING.
I know 2024 will most likely just be more of the same, we all know that.
But regardless of what it ends up being.
I asked you last year..
“What are you?”
I know what I am.
Still alive.
And so are YOU.
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